A confession that's been bothering me

335R1 · 01-07-2010, 11:09 PM

Before you read this: Please don't judge me... I'm just sharing my story because I need to talk about it.

Wow... okay, I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this, but it's late and I'm sleep deprived so i guess I'll just write it now and regret it in the morning :/

First of all, - just for some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually really, really hot- but this isn't about her. I guess that's ****ed up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dad's family, because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.

Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a hottie.

I don't want to go into too many details about it, but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didn't make it for me- but I thought she was so ****ing beautiful that I watched it twice. I probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I found the video, all this crazy **** went down and I had to leave home. (My dad's family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the law. I never talk about it).

Sooo... I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home.

My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to **** her brains out. Looking back on it now, it's pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get her... and it wasn't a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasn't like ridiculously sexual or anything, but it definitely wasn't sisterly.

After we left, we all went to crash with my Sister's friends. On the trip there, my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a little jealous. He's a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging.

Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so we all moved around a lot. I'm not saying that I'm proud of it or anything, but it was kind of an awesome time.

My friend and my sister never hooked up I don't think- but I thought there was some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was ****ed up. I almost died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips.

Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some time apart... and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was wearing like the hottest bikini I've ever ****ing seen and it brought back all the old feelings. Sigh.

A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I can't say I was surprised.

But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at a party... my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.

Kiemyster · 01-07-2010, 11:15 PM

I like to pOke sMot, just incase you wanted to know... i felt like i had to confess as well

pittsy · 01-07-2010, 11:21 PM

Andrew@ET · 01-07-2010, 11:34 PM

is this your true sister same dad and mom?

stimpy · 01-07-2010, 11:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by pittsy

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335R1 · 01-07-2010, 11:38 PM

yes

m3pare · 01-07-2010, 11:39 PM

wat

Feyd · 01-07-2010, 11:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Andrew@EMS

is this your true sister same dad and mom?

*zoooOOOooom*

Right over your head...

Andrew@ET · 01-07-2010, 11:46 PM

Just making sure it wasnt a step sister or anything that would change everything..

Kensta335 · 01-07-2010, 11:46 PM

MrChessy · 01-07-2010, 11:57 PM

My cousin is hot and she's a model...I cannot have impure thoughts!

choicez · 01-07-2010, 11:59 PM

Awesome!

Blake · 01-08-2010, 12:00 AM

post to /b/
profit

number335 · 01-08-2010, 12:11 AM

good stuff

ideliver · 01-08-2010, 01:12 AM

If you are serious, then you will need some professional help. There are obviously deep emotional problems here and if you truly want to get better, then you need to make the next step. Start with you family physician and ask for a referal to a psychologist.

You have some serious abandonment issues (and others) that will never be worked out on your own.

Good luck...

number335 · 01-08-2010, 01:17 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ideliver

If you are serious, then you will need some professional help. There are obviously deep emotional problems here and if you truly want to get better, then you need to make the next step. Start with you family physician and ask for a referal to a psychologist.

You have some serious abandonment issues (and others) that will never be worked out on your own.

Good luck...

i think you should give him and his sister the benefit of the doubt. i would attribute their incest for each other to the force that runs in their family. and besides, he destroyed the death star so i would cut him some slack.

FStop7 · 01-08-2010, 01:35 AM

in before bel air

Kroy · 01-08-2010, 01:45 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by MrChessy

My cousin is hot and she's a model...I cannot have impure thoughts!

how distant a cousin?

Comet · 01-08-2010, 03:15 AM

I don't know if the serious answers to this thread are serious or sarcastic... my sarcasto-meter is broken it seems

radix · 01-08-2010, 03:21 AM

There are some serious reading comprehension issues ITT. If you think this is serious you are either:

1. Not reading the whole story.

or

2. A huge dumbass.

or

3. Both

Further serious comments will be mocked as necessary.

SantaPimp27 · 01-08-2010, 03:30 AM

incestboard.com <---- this

b1gmac88 · 01-08-2010, 03:47 AM

ahahah I just got it... wow for a second there I was like wow this guy is one sick fucking dude.

01-07-2010, 11:09 PM	#1
335R1 Private First Class 34 Rep 108 Posts Drives: F30 335i Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Connecticut iTrader: (0)	A confession that's been bothering me Before you read this: Please don't judge me... I'm just sharing my story because I need to talk about it. Wow... okay, I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about this, but it's late and I'm sleep deprived so i guess I'll just write it now and regret it in the morning :/ First of all, - just for some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually really, really hot- but this isn't about her. I guess that's **ed up to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dad's family, because my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up. Anyways, growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister was a hottie. I don't want to go into too many details about it, but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that she made of herself. I knew she didn't make it for me- but I thought she was so ing beautiful that I watched it twice. I probably would have watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I found the video, all this crazy went down and I had to leave home. (My dad's family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the law. I never talk about it). Sooo... I was totally lusting after my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law. She was actually in custody when I left home. My friend and I went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video, I have to be honest, I just wanted to her brains out. Looking back on it now, it's pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get her... and it wasn't a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasn't like ridiculously sexual or anything, but it definitely wasn't sisterly. After we left, we all went to crash with my Sister's friends. On the trip there, my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my Sister, and I got a little jealous. He's a good looking guy- and even though she was my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging. Pretty much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so we all moved around a lot. I'm not saying that I'm proud of it or anything, but it was kind of an awesome time. My friend and my sister never hooked up I don't think- but I thought there was some serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was ed up. I almost died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate kiss on the lips. Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing ever came of it. We spent some time apart... and I started to get really religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was wearing like the hottest bikini I've ever **ing seen and it brought back all the old feelings. Sigh. A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I can't say I was surprised. But even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we were at a party... my friend was inside, and my sister and I were outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.
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Andrew@ET Brigadier General 199 Rep 4,037 Posts Drives: Red thing Join Date: May 2007 Location: Earth iTrader: (9)	is this your true sister same dad and mom?
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MrChessy Magical Pill... 158 Rep 12,775 Posts Drives: wreckless Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Smallville iTrader: (2)	My cousin is hot and she's a model...I cannot have impure thoughts! __________________
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b1gmac88 Captain 92 Rep 953 Posts Drives: 335i e92 Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: E Coast iTrader: (16)	ahahah I just got it... wow for a second there I was like wow this guy is one sick fucking dude.
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